The life I lead

About this book

Dave Brewer, married to Tara - they have an eighteen-month-old daughter - is a meter reader for Indiana Gas. He helps his ailing father. He drives a bus for the Norris Road Baptist Church. He enjoys a good round of golf. He has everything he wants: family, community, a steady job. Until one day at a public pool, he sees a boy, a quiet loner, in whom he sees himself. The boy, Nathan, has cut his foot at the pool. Something in his scared, innocent eyes awakens a powerful compassion in Dave that gradually emerges as something more: an obsession both physical and spiritual ("I feel what I feel for him in the back of my mouth, in the muscles in my hands"). As his interest in Nathan evolves from sympathy to love, Dave can no longer deny the complexity of his feelings - he desires Nathan at the same time that he wants to save him. His feelings for the boy - summoning up a crucial, long-forgotten memory from his own boyhood - propel him into the crisis of his life.